Be myself

Does be myself mean simply act how I feel? I would say acknowledging all that I feel at the moment, then taking responsibility for my actions by consciously choosing which level of my feelings I am going to respond to.

Sometimes I feel trapped by my feelings, which I couldn't change them, I shouldn't try to even if I could. At times, I see many negative feelings inside me that I don't want, and yet I feel that I must express them if I were going to be myself.

Since then I have realized that my feelings do change and that I can have a hand in changing them. They change simply by my becoming aware of them. When I acknowledge my feelings they become more positive. And they change when I express them.

Another thing I have realized is that my not wanting to express a negative feeling is a feeling in itself, a part of me, and if I want not to express the negative feeling more than I do, then I will be acting more like myself by not expressing it.

Accept what "is". That is what is required. Accept reality as reality is to me now. Recently, I have been keep on feeling anxious about a few things, is my work creative enough? Is dad all right to work at his age? Will San (my younger sister) getting "Denggi", she's been admitted for 3 days now? Am I worry too much? Right now this anxiety is my reality.

Don't fight a fact, deal with it.